phone call

I feel so hollow.
And yes, it's because of that.

If I was good girl,
If I had called dad,
If I never knew how to cry,
If I could learn not to waste my tears,
If I was a good daughter,
If I was never given a phone,
If I never loved my phone so much,
If I could realise how stupid things can be,
If I figured that it's silly to get upset for no reason,
If I can talk to him,
If I can explain to him,
If I was loved and understood more,
If I can turn back time,
If I had just called,
If I can laugh at how weird things can be,
If I can smile all the time,
If I can hide everything behing a huge smile,
If I could voice out,
If I could have God as my best friend,
If I can God next to me,
If I realised God doesn't hear me,
If I was a good daughter.

Wasn't I one?

I want to tell you so many thing but I can't. I apologise if I had ever hurt you.
I love you, daddy. No matter what happens I will continue loving you.
I wonder why did you even say that? I was full of question marks.

Even if I don't call, that does that mean that I am neglecting you?
That doesn't mean that I've stopped loving you. It's just a phone call.
I'm so sorry for upseting you. My mistake, I should've called.
A stupid phone call was the cause of all this rubbish. I shouldn't have answered when you called.
I feel so dead without the phone. But I am fine wiht it, it's after all phone

I love you, pa!

And if God can hear me, I'll just be so happy. If God could speak to me..

Melody

It's a Sunday today.

I went to fine arts this morning. Guess what? I forgot so many songs. So much for not touching and practising veena. It's okay. I brought home my veena and hopefully I'll start practising.

Dipa, Deepti and I went to gurney just now. I went there to get my brother some books which he wanted from Popular. On the way to Popular, I saw this real gorgeous dress being displayed. So many dresses. Beautiful and pretty ones. We stopped everywhere. I want to go shopping. I want to shop for bags, dresses, jeans, t-shirts and accessories.

And you, why are you so annoying? Just because I said something on Ju's and Kit's chatterbox, i think of you all the time? aaargh! I'll just make you happy by not talking to you. If I don't talk you say I'm avoiding you and if I talk you say that you are all I think about. I don't want to argue. Even if I say something, you say that I sound as if I am arguing. Weirdo, loser, cry baby.

I wish it rains! tic tac.. I wanna get wet in the rain. I haven't even told dad about going to Juli's house tomorrow. =D

I checked the NS list. =(
Instead of saying takziah, it says tahniah.

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Just called dad and he said okay! smiles

booo

I went for threading today. OUCH! I didn't tear this time eventhough it did hurt. smiles
I miss the fabulous five so much. Wait, I think I should say fabulous 3. I see kasturi and myself all the time.

Fab 5, did you all know that Miss PMS aka Miss Loo has a boyfriend. Sneha saw her in gurney with someone. A guy to be precised. Sneha assumed it was her boyfriend. I'm actually suprised.

Priya's wedding bells are ringing! Yay! I can't wait to go back to India cause it has been 3 years since I last went. Lalala.. I can't wait for the 24th of November to come.

My friend's hair still isn't growing. =(